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How to study this verse, in six steps
  1. 1Say the verse. Read the transliteration aloud, slowly.
  2. 2Read the word meanings. Go through each word and its meaning.
  3. 3Read the translation. Ask: what is happening here, and who is it about?
  4. 4Read the purport slowly. Read it twice. Don't rush.
  5. 5See Lord Caitanya as Kṛṣṇa. Remember who is acting in the pastime.
  6. 6Take one thing into your day. Note one point and one practice.
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Antya-līlā · Chapter 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu
Antya 19.50Antya 19.52

Śrī Caitanya Caritamrta · Text Antya 19.51

সব ত্যজি’ ভজি যাঁরে, সেই আপন-হাতে মারে, নারীবধে কৃষ্ণের নাহি ভয় ।

তাঁর লাগি’ আমি মরি, উলটি’ না চাহে হরি, ক্ষণমাত্রে ভাঙ্গিল প্রণয় ॥ ৫১ ॥

saba tyaji’ bhaji yāṅre, sei āpana-hāte māre,

nārī-vadhe kṛṣṇera nāhi bhaya

tāṅra lāgi’ āmi mari, ulaṭi’ nā cāhe hari,

kṣaṇa-mātre bhāṅgila praṇaya

Translation

“He for whom I have left everything is personally killing Me with His own hands. Kṛṣṇa has no fear of killing women. Indeed, I am dying for Him, but He doesn’t even turn back to look at Me. Within a moment, He has broken off Our loving affairs.

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This verse has no purport; its meaning is explained by the verses around it.

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Understand it

Three study points drawn from the translation and purport.

Love Feels Separation as Death

  1. 1

    The speaker has left everything for Kṛṣṇa and now describes His departure as being killed by His own hands.

  2. 2

    Kṛṣṇa does not even turn back to look, deepening the anguish of separation.

  3. 3

    The loving relationship seems to have been broken off in a moment. These are words of intense lament.

How it feels

Longing beyond ordinary categories. Extreme separation alternates with moments of visionary encounter.

The mood of Antya 19 as a whole, an editorial reading, not the text itself. See the emotional atlas

Further reading

Antya 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu

From Śrīla Prabhupāda's chapter summary, the lines nearest this verse:

When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu read it, His ecstasy was so great that all the devotees feared that the Lord would very soon pass away. The Lord’s condition was so serious that at night He would bruise and bloody His face by rubbing it against the walls.
Read the whole chapter summaryBack to this verse in Antya 19
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Word for word

Learn the words of the verse.

  1. saba tyaji’leaving everything aside
  2. bhaji yāṅrethe person whom I worship
  3. seithat person
  4. āpana-hāteby His own hand
  5. mārekills
  6. nārī-vadhein killing one woman
  7. kṛṣṇeraof Kṛṣṇa
  8. nāhi bhayathere is no fear
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Key ideas in this verse

The themes of love and mercy this verse speaks of.

  • Vipralambha · Love in separation

    Separation that intensifies remembrance and longing; especially central to the confidential pastimes at Purī. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “separation”, “lament”

  • Bhāva & rasa · The language of sacred feeling

    Transcendental devotional moods and relationships, discussed explicitly in Rāmānanda’s dialogue and the teachings on prema. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “relationship”

Concept links are an editorial study map; only the verse is the text itself.

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Live it

Take one thing from this verse into your day.

Ask yourself

How does the contrast between leaving everything and receiving no backward glance deepen this lament?

Practice

Reread the verse, pausing at the words “He doesn’t even turn back to look at Me.”

Live this todayLove Feels Separation as DeathThis verse's lesson: one practice and one question for today

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