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How to study this verse, in six steps

1Say the verse. Read the transliteration aloud, slowly.
2Read the word meanings. Go through each word and its meaning.
3Read the translation. Ask: what is happening here, and who is it about?
4Read the purport slowly. Read it twice. Don't rush.
5See Lord Caitanya as Kṛṣṇa. Remember who is acting in the pastime.
6Take one thing into your day. Note one point and one practice.

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Antya-līlā · Chapter 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu

Antya 19.49 Antya 19.51

Śrī Caitanya Caritamrta · Text Antya 19.50

আপনার কর্ম-দোষ, তোরে কিবা করি রোষ, তোয়-মোয় সম্বন্ধ বিদূর ।

যে আমার প্রাণনাথ, একত্র রহি যাঁর সাথ, সেই কৃষ্ণ হইলা নিঠুর ! ৫০ ।। ॥ ৫০ ॥

āpanāra karma-doṣa, tore kibā kari roṣa,

toya-moya sambandha vidūra

ye āmāra prāṇa-nātha, ekatra rahi yāṅra sātha,

sei kṛṣṇa ha-ilā niṭhura!

Translation

“But this is the fault of My own destiny. Why should I needlessly accuse you? There is no intimate relationship between you and Me. Kṛṣṇa, however, is My life and soul. It is We who live together, and it is He who has become so cruel.

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This verse has no purport; its meaning is explained by the verses around it.

Understand it

Three study points drawn from the translation and purport.

Kṛṣṇa Is My Life and Soul

1
The speaker turns from accusing Providence to blaming personal destiny.
2
There is no intimate relationship with Providence, but Kṛṣṇa is described as life and soul.
3
The pain centers on Kṛṣṇa: the beloved companion now seems cruel.

How it feels

Longing beyond ordinary categories. Extreme separation alternates with moments of visionary encounter.

The mood of Antya 19 as a whole, an editorial reading, not the text itself. See the emotional atlas

Antya 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu

From Śrīla Prabhupāda's chapter summary, the lines nearest this verse:

When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu read it, His ecstasy was so great that all the devotees feared that the Lord would very soon pass away. The Lord’s condition was so serious that at night He would bruise and bloody His face by rubbing it against the walls.

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Word for word

Learn the words of the verse.

āpanāra karma-doṣait is the result of My own fate
toreunto you
kibāwhat
kari roṣaI give accusations
toya-moyabetween you and Me
sambandhathe relationship
vidūravery far
yethe one who is

Key ideas in this verse

The themes of love and mercy this verse speaks of.

Bhāva & rasa · The language of sacred feeling
Transcendental devotional moods and relationships, discussed explicitly in Rāmānanda’s dialogue and the teachings on prema. · In the Prema Atlas
In this verse: “relationship”
Kīrtana community · A movement of shared hearts
Devotional community as a living network of branches, service, festivals, care, and collective chanting. · In the Prema Atlas
In this verse: “together”

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Live it

Take one thing from this verse into your day.

Ask yourself

What does calling Kṛṣṇa “My life and soul” reveal about this relationship?

Practice

Spend a quiet minute reflecting on the words “Kṛṣṇa, however, is My life and soul.”

Live this todayKṛṣṇa Is My Life and SoulThis verse's lesson: one practice and one question for today

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