Live Caitanya Caritamrta · CC Antya 4.75
Self-Doubt Before the Lord’s Purpose
“I am lowborn. Indeed, I am the lowest. I am condemned, for I have all the characteristics of a sinful man. If You keep me alive, what will be the profit?”
What the purport teaches
- Sanātana Gosvāmī describes himself as lowborn and the lowest. These are his words about himself, not the Lord’s judgment of him.
- He considers himself condemned and possessing the characteristics of a sinful man.
- He asks what benefit there could be in keeping him alive. In the following verses, the Lord answers by describing the many tasks He will accomplish through Sanātana’s body.
Try this today
Read Sanātana Gosvāmī’s question alongside the Lord’s assurance that He has many tasks for him.
Ask yourself
How does the Lord’s response challenge Sanātana Gosvāmī’s sense that his life has no useful purpose?
Carry the question through the day, then answer it in your own words before sleep.
The study points are short summaries drawn from Śrīla Prabhupāda's translation and purport; the practice and question are plain words for trying the verse today.