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How to study this verse, in six steps
  1. 1Say the verse. Read the transliteration aloud, slowly.
  2. 2Read the word meanings. Go through each word and its meaning.
  3. 3Read the translation. Ask: what is happening here, and who is it about?
  4. 4Read the purport slowly. Read it twice. Don't rush.
  5. 5See Lord Caitanya as Kṛṣṇa. Remember who is acting in the pastime.
  6. 6Take one thing into your day. Note one point and one practice.
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Śrī Caitanya Caritamrta · Text Antya 4.140

হিত-নিমিত্ত আইলাঙ আমি, হৈল বিপরীতে ।

কি করিলে হিত হয় নারি নির্ধারিতে ।।” ১৪০ ।। ॥ ১৪০ ॥

hita-nimitta āilāṅa āmi, haila viparīte

ki karile hita haya nāri nirdhārite”

Translation

“I came here for my benefit, but now I see that I am getting just the opposite. I do not know, nor can I ascertain, how there will be benefit for me.”

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This verse has no purport; its meaning is explained by the verses around it.

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Understand it

Three study points drawn from the translation and purport.

Honestly Expressing Uncertainty About Spiritual Benefit

  1. 1

    Sanātana Gosvāmī had come hoping for his own benefit.

  2. 2

    He now feels that he is receiving the opposite of what he hoped for.

  3. 3

    He openly admits that he cannot see how benefit will come to him.

How it feels

Despair met with care. Sanātana’s wish to die is interrupted by the Lord’s protective insistence on his future service.

The mood of Antya 4 as a whole, an editorial reading, not the text itself. See the emotional atlas

Further reading

Antya 4: Sanātana Gosvāmī Visits the Lord at Jagannātha Purī

From Śrīla Prabhupāda's chapter summary, the lines nearest this verse:

Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu was pleased to hear about Sanātana Gosvāmī’s great respect for the temple of Lord Śrī Jagannātha. Because his disease produced wet sores on his body, Sanātana Gosvāmī used to avoid embracing Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, but nevertheless the Lord would embrace him by force.
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Word for word

Learn the words of the verse.

  1. hita-nimittafor benefit
  2. āilāṅacame
  3. āmiI
  4. haila viparīteit has become just the opposite
  5. ki karilehow
  6. hita hayathere will be benefit
  7. nāri nirdhāriteI cannot ascertain
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Live it

Take one thing from this verse into your day.

Ask yourself

Can I honestly acknowledge when I do not understand what will benefit me?

Practice

Write down one uncertainty about your spiritual life that you would like to discuss with a trusted devotee.

Live this todayHonestly Expressing Uncertainty About Spiritual BenefitThis verse's lesson: one practice and one question for today

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