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How to study this verse, in six steps
  1. 1Say the verse. Read the transliteration aloud, slowly.
  2. 2Read the word meanings. Go through each word and its meaning.
  3. 3Read the translation. Ask: what is happening here, and who is it about?
  4. 4Read the purport slowly. Read it twice. Don't rush.
  5. 5See Lord Caitanya as Kṛṣṇa. Remember who is acting in the pastime.
  6. 6Take one thing into your day. Note one point and one practice.
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Śrī Caitanya Caritamrta · Text Antya 19.9

তোমার সেবা ছাড়ি’ আমি করিলুঁ সন্ন্যাস ।

‘বাউল’ হঞা আমি কৈলুঁ ধর্মনাশ ॥ ৯ ॥

tomāra sevā chāḍi’ āmi kariluṅ sannyāsa

‘bāula’ hañā āmi kailuṅ dharma-nāśa

Translation

“ ‘I have given up service to you and have accepted the vow of sannyāsa. I have thus become mad and have destroyed the principles of religion.

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This verse has no purport; its meaning is explained by the verses around it.

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Understand it

Three study points drawn from the translation and purport.

Humble Regret for Leaving His Mother’s Service

  1. 1

    Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu says that He has given up service to His mother by accepting the vow of sannyāsa.

  2. 2

    He speaks of Himself as having become mad and destroyed the principles of religion.

  3. 3

    In this message to His mother, His words express deep regret over leaving her service.

How it feels

Longing beyond ordinary categories. Extreme separation alternates with moments of visionary encounter.

The mood of Antya 19 as a whole, an editorial reading, not the text itself. See the emotional atlas

Further reading

Antya 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu

From Śrīla Prabhupāda's chapter summary, the lines nearest this verse:

The following summary of chapter nineteen is given by Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura in his Amṛta-pravāha-bhāṣya. Every year, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu asked Jagadānanda Paṇḍita to visit His mother in Navadvīpa with gifts of cloth and prasādam.
Read the whole chapter summaryBack to this verse in Antya 19
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Word for word

Learn the words of the verse.

  1. tomāra sevā chāḍi’giving up your service
  2. āmiI
  3. kariluṅaccepted
  4. sannyāsathe renounced order of life
  5. bāula hañābecoming mad
  6. āmiI
  7. kailuṅdid
  8. dharma-nāśadestruction of religion
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Key ideas in this verse

The themes of love and mercy this verse speaks of.

  • Sevā · Love translated into service

    Devotional service expressed through cleansing, caring, teaching, honoring others, and living as Kṛṣṇa’s servant. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “service”

Concept links are an editorial study map; only the verse is the text itself.

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Live it

Take one thing from this verse into your day.

Ask yourself

How seriously do I take the service I owe to those who care for me?

Practice

Identify one neglected act of care for your mother or someone who has cared for you, and do it today.

Live this todayHumble Regret for Leaving His Mother’s ServiceThis verse's lesson: one practice and one question for today

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