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  1. 1Say the verse. Read the transliteration aloud, slowly.
  2. 2Read the word meanings. Go through each word and its meaning.
  3. 3Read the translation. Ask: what is happening here, and who is it about?
  4. 4Read the purport slowly. Read it twice. Don't rush.
  5. 5See Lord Caitanya as Kṛṣṇa. Remember who is acting in the pastime.
  6. 6Take one thing into your day. Note one point and one practice.
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Antya-līlā · Chapter 1: Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī’s Second Meeting with the Lord
Antya 1.151Antya 1.153

Śrī Caitanya Caritamrta · Text Antya 1.152

যস্যোৎসঙ্গসুখাশয়া শিথিলিতা গুর্বী গুরুভ্যস্ত্রপা প্রাণেভ্যোঽপি সুহৃত্তমাঃ সখি তথা যূয়ং পরিক্লেশিতাঃ ।

ধর্মঃ সোঽপি মহান্ময়া ন গণিতঃ সাধ্বীভিরধ্যাসিতো ধিগ্ধৈর্যং তদুপেক্ষিতাপি যদহং জীবামি পাপীয়সী ॥ ১৫২ ॥

yasyotsaṅga-sukhāśayā śithilitā gurvī gurubhyas trapā

prāṇebhyo ’pi suhṛt-tamāḥ sakhi tathā yūyaṁ parikleśitāḥ

dharmaḥ so ’pi mahān mayā na gaṇitaḥ sādhvībhir adhyāsito

dhig dhairyaṁ tad-upekṣitāpi yad ahaṁ jīvāmi pāpīyasī

Translation

“ ‘Desiring the happiness of His association and embraces, My dear friend, I disregarded even My superiors and relaxed My shyness and gravity before them. Furthermore, although you are My best friend, more dear to Me than My own life, I have given you so much trouble. Indeed, I even put aside the vow of dedication to My husband, a vow kept by the most elevated women. Oh, alas! Although He is now neglecting Me, I am so sinful that I am still living. Therefore I must condemn My so-called patience.’

Read Śrīla Prabhupāda's purport on Vedabase.io
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Understand it

Three study points drawn from the translation and purport.

Rādhārāṇī Laments Kṛṣṇa’s Neglect

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    Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī speaks to Her intimate friend Viśākhādevī. Desiring Kṛṣṇa’s association and embraces, She disregarded Her superiors and relaxed Her shyness and gravity.

  2. 2

    She laments having troubled Her friend, who is dearer to Her than Her own life. She also recalls setting aside Her vow of dedication to Her husband.

  3. 3

    Now feeling neglected by Kṛṣṇa, She condemns Her own continued patience. Her words express the depth of Her grief.

Key points from the purport
  • Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī is speaking this verse (Vidagdha-mādhava 2.41) to Her intimate friend Viśākhādevī.

Śrīla Prabhupāda's own sentences, chosen from the purport as its central points. Read the full purport on Vedabase to see them in place.

How it feels

Recognition and encouragement. Rūpa’s devotional insight receives the Lord’s approval; even a dog receives mercy.

The mood of Antya 1 as a whole, an editorial reading, not the text itself. See the emotional atlas

Further reading

Antya 1: Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī’s Second Meeting with the Lord

From Śrīla Prabhupāda's chapter summary, the lines nearest this verse:

Although he could not follow the Bengali devotees, after some time he also came to Jagannātha Purī, where he stayed with Haridāsa Ṭhākura. Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī composed an important verse beginning with the words priyaḥ so ’yam, and Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu relished it very much.
Read the whole chapter summaryBack to this verse in Antya 1
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Word for word

Learn the words of the verse.

  1. yasyaof whom
  2. utsaṅga-sukha-āśayāby the desire for the happiness of the association
  3. śithilitāslackened
  4. gurvīvery great
  5. gurubhyaḥunto the superiors
  6. trapābashfulness
  7. prāṇebhyaḥthan My life
  8. apialthough
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Key ideas in this verse

The themes of love and mercy this verse speaks of.

  • Sādhu-saṅga · Love grows through association

    Spiritual association shapes the movement, empowers disciples, and reveals truths through loving conversations. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “association”

  • Rādhā-bhāva · The confidential inner purpose

    The Lord’s desire to taste the love and perspective of Śrī Rādhā, illuminated by later ecstatic pastimes. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “rādhārāṇī”

  • Vipralambha · Love in separation

    Separation that intensifies remembrance and longing; especially central to the confidential pastimes at Purī. · In the Prema Atlas

    In this verse: “laments”

Concept links are an editorial study map; only the verse is the text itself.

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Live it

Take one thing from this verse into your day.

Ask yourself

How does Rādhārāṇī’s concern for Her friend appear within Her own grief?

Practice

Identify one phrase about Rādhārāṇī’s longing and one about Her concern for Viśākhādevī.

Live this todayRādhārāṇī Laments Kṛṣṇa’s NeglectThis verse's lesson: one practice and one question for today

Study points are short summaries, not the translation. Confirm them in the original text and purport on Vedabase.

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